Perpetual Smile

This turned out to be a longer post than I intended. It’s (most) of my woes, so if you want to skip it and read something more cheery, I recommend the Fun stuff category. Otherwise, leave a comment and tell me about your woes. It’s not all about me here, anyway.

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This morning on my way to work, I passed a Sunoco and glanced at the price. It was $1.99 a gallon (cash). While most of us rejoice at this lower, Walmart-style price, there’s that nagging feeling in the back of my head that says, “this is bad.” I am only vaguely aware that the reason for the lower gas prices is the declining stock market. The people around me who know about these things — like KJ at work — tell me that the price of gas is going to keep going down, since the stock market won’t be going up anytime soon.

It’s a Catch 22, just like my own financial situation. I ranted a little about this on Scars Can Speak (the Letters of Love blog), and I’ve been writing in my own journal every day about different ways to tackle this problem. Either way, I lose on something. If, for example, I get a second job, I’ll be doing even more running from place to place and who knows how I’ll get my school work done for the rest of the semester. If I get more hours or can go full-time at my current job, I’ll only be able to take two classes next semester rather than getting a full head start on my BA. If I can’t get more hours at my current job and can’t get a second job, I’ll have to leave my current job (which I really like) for a full-time corporate job. Yes, I’d be making more money, but I wouldn’t be able to go back to school full-time for a while. I’d have to be a part-time student. It would take forever. I am so career-oriented and want everything done yesterday that it would drive me nuts. Read the rest of this entry »

Stress, stress, stress. Do you have any stress you’d like to get rid of? You could probably give it to me. I have enough, it probably won’t kill me to have any more.

All of my classes are going surprisingly well. I’m not having any trouble keeping up. So at least there’s that. It’s my regular life that’s killing me. Mainly, my home situation. I won’t publicly bitch about it, but just know that it’s really stressing me out. I’m also really concerned about a few of my friends. I can’t publicly bitch about that, either, but on top of my home life it’s definitely causing me to teeter.

Anyway. I’m in my Visual Basic class right now, and I’m amazed at how normal a pace we’re going through this book. I’m used to going through books at lightning speed, since I’ve only taken degree-specific programming classes and they were intensive. We usually did four or five assignments a week. I’m not complaining. I could get used to this. (:

Work is going well. I’ve got a lot of projects going on that keep me busy, so I can’t complain.

I’m sorry this post is so lame. You were all expecting a rant, weren’t you?

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Jenna, founder of Rising Above, recently announced her latest book project. She is collecting letters from survivors of abuse, to themselves or their abusers. If you have a MySpace account, you can view the event posting here, or you can email Jenna for more information.

If you know anyone who might be interested, please pass this on!