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I am obsessive compulsive

Friday, July 25th, 2008

This is a response to the Question of the Day on lettersoflove.net.

I have so many quirky habits that it’s hard to sit down and list them. I was thinking about one of them earlier tonight. I noticed that if I don’t finish a cigarette–waste it, as I call it in my mind–I will “punish” myself by not letting myself have one later on when I really want one. I’m not sure why I do this. I swear that I have undiagnosed OCD. All of my things have to be arranged in a certain way, and if someone messes them up I notice immediately and it like, frazzles my brain. I also do everything the same way every time, and if I break that “routine” in the slightest bit I get really confused. A good example is taking a shower.

I set up my desk at work the same way every morning and put everything away when I leave, only to take it out again and arrange it in the morning. Same thing at home.

The list goes on and on. (;

I am neurotic

Wednesday, July 16th, 2008

I am so neurotic that I’m starting to wonder if it’s OCD. I have designed and redesigned Letters of Love so many times by now that I am convinced I am never going to actually finish something. Right now it has the standard Wordpress layout, which looks like this:

LETTERSOFLOVE.net, with standard Wordpress theme

I got stuck on–or married to, as my aunt would say–the Impact font and kept trying to design around that. I finally decided, with some prodding from her, that I would stop being so stubborn and pick a new font. Well, now I can’t pick a font. Nothing is good enough. GAAH.

So not only am I sciurophobic, but I am also neurotic. I guess it’s all part of my charm. d:

I am sciurophobic

Monday, July 14th, 2008

I wanted to make this blog kind of fun, so I thought I’d do an “I am..” series. I’ll try to do one of these posts a week. In each post I’ll write about something about me that not everyone knows. Most of it will be random, odd stuff. (:

My family, Sandy, and boyfriend make fun of me because I am afraid of squirrels. After doing some research on Google, I discovered that this actually has a name. Sciurophobia is the fear of squirrels and it’s actually very common. Some people have an irrational fear while others have a reason behind it. Me? I have a few reasons. If you laugh at me, I’ll throw things at you.

When I was in elementary school, my mom used to pick me and my little sister up. We lived right down the street, so we’d walk to and from school together. It was around fall and, being kids, we used to walk through the leaves that would collect on the inside of the sidewalk all the time. One day I was walking through the leaves and stepped on something hard. When I looked down, to my horror I realized I’d stepped on a dead squirrel. Needless to say, I didn’t walk through leaves for the longest time. Actually, I only just started walking through the leaves again. I’m not sure how I feel about that now.

The second reason I hate squirrels is that the ones at work are the boldest, nastiest little things. They’ll actually stand there and stare at me for no reason. Some of my coworkers leave out peanuts and crap like that, so the little furballs have gotten bold to the point that they aren’t afraid of humans at all. Fantastic. I think it’s so creepy, the way they stare at you with those black eyes. Mike thinks they’re cute.

So naturally I don’t really like squirrels. The fear came about when, a couple of weeks ago, I was at Quassy with Sandy and my godchildren. We rode the little train there, which goes under a tunnel. Just after we went under the tunnel for the first time, something hard and furry hit the back of my head (I was turned around facing Kay, Sandy and Konner). At first I thought maybe someone had thrown a soda bottle or something, but then I saw the thing fly through the air and it was definitely a squirrel. It scratched Sandy’s leg a little and then ran away.

Ever since then, I have been actively avoiding the little things. I don’t like them. I’m afraid of them. I am not afraid to admit it, but I do wish people would stop teasing me about it. It seems to have a large presence on the web, but I can’t find anything official looking. I found sciurophobia and fear of squirrels Google search results, but when searching for phobias, I can’t find anything listed on the official phobia sites.

Still, it’s comforting to know that I’m not the only one, and now when someone makes fun of me I can point them to Google. (: