Wading through the motions
Posted in Depression Sucks, Uncategorized on 01/20/2010 10:56 am by Elizabeth KayleneI’m typically what I like to call a “functioning depressive.” When I’m depressed, I can still perform everyday tasks. It just takes every ounce of energy I have. I can’t remember a time when I just completely shut down and couldn’t get out of bed.
Is it so wrong, then, that I want to do just that now? I feel like I’m running out of energy. I don’t want to function anymore, dammit. I just want to hole up and kick the world out for a little while. I want to call out of work. I want to sit in my own little bubble and numb everything out.
Honestly, I feel like I can’t take much today. I don’t feel very strong. I just feel like an open target. I want to hide. I’m tired of going through the motions, pretending that I don’t feel like shattering. For once, I just want to tell the motions to fuck off.
01/20/2010 at 11:42 am
Im here for you if you need someone.
01/20/2010 at 1:26 pm
I am not for medicating people…. but we could hang out and get drunk together. Oh except we don’t actually know each other… and alcohol is a depressant. Shit. Scratch that.
01/21/2010 at 8:36 am
At the end of the dark nights, there are bright days…
Just remember that, and you’ll be okay. You’re entitled to days where you want to kick the motions out the window for a while. It happens to me too, especially when I’m over tired (chronic pain and with it depression is harder to deal with when you’re tired, even a little bit. 8 hours of sleep I must get to function through motions!).
I’m here for ya, send me a BBM if you need to
I may not reply right away but I’ll always respond!
01/20/2010 at 8:49 pm
Alcohol works the total opposite on me, so I’d totally be down if we actually knew each other.
01/20/2010 at 8:49 pm
Thanks. I may just take you up on that, considering you’re the one who “gets it” best.
01/20/2010 at 10:32 pm
well, you have my number, anytime you need me honi, just call.
01/22/2010 at 10:35 pm
Thank you. And same here: I’m just a BBM away. *hugs*
01/22/2010 at 10:35 pm
Thank you.