I can’t believe she’s gone
I just found out that my friend Liane from high school passed away this weekend. I was uploading the photos for the week at work and saw her picture. I didn’t want to believe it was her, so I hunted for the article. I didn’t really have to do much hunting; it was on the front page of Rep-Am.com. I still didn’t want to believe it was her, but then Sandy called and confirmed. I’m having a hard time not crying here at work. This really sucks. The last time I saw Liane, when I was working at Toys R Us, she was buying stuff for her baby. She was really happy and really in love with her daughter. I remember telling someone — probably Mike — that I was really happy that she was happy. She looked good, too.
I am trying to track down information for arrangements. I guess they are being held this week at St. Michael’s Church. The people there are going to email me when they know the details. I am going to try like hell to go; Sandy and I are friends with all of Liane’s friends (we’re mutual friends with Everett and Lena, Sandy is friends with Liane’s boyfriend Jeremy, and I’m friends with mutual old boyfriend slash good friend Sean).
I can’t wrap my head around this. It seems like just yesterday we were in high school together, hanging out in the stadium smoking cigarettes — among other things, heh — waiting for the first bell to ring. It feels like just yesterday I saw her, all grown up and happy to be a mom. We weren’t real close, but I still have a lot of good memories with her. Like my sophomore year. She and Lena publicly announced that they were dating, and started a whole lesbian revolution in our high school. Because of them, every girl claimed to be either a lesbian or bisexual. Thanks to them, I was able to figure out my own sexuality. I also have goofy memories of hanging out in the parking lot before school with her, mainly smoking and of course Kurt Cobain’s anniversary (Lena loves Kurt Cobain). She was a great person and we’re all going to miss her.
I think I’m sort of in denial, though. I mean, your friends aren’t supposed to die. Not this young, anyway. She was just getting her life started and back on track. I don’t even know what to say anymore. I’m just so sad.
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September 2nd, 2008 at 2:05 pm
[...] Today I found out my friend Liane from high school died this weekend — and it looks like it may have been an overdose, though that’s not for sure. She was only a year or so older than me, and has a 22-month-old daughter. The last time I saw her, she was really happy. She was glad to be a mom and was talking about her plans to become an RN. She looked damn good, healthy and just as beautiful as she’d been in high school. [...]
September 3rd, 2008 at 1:06 pm
I know what you mean! I’m sad… I remember her and Lena and a couple other people coming to pick up Tommy one night and she was just so bouncy and happy… and so full of life. I mostly feel bad for everyone around her right now. She was an awesome girl with a big heart and she will be greatly missed, and NEVER forgotten!!!
September 3rd, 2008 at 2:56 pm
I’ve never lost any close friends, but recently I found out that someone I knew back in summer camp was killed by a serial killer. I saw pictures of her now, at 30, and she hadn’t changed a bit. That was crazy.
September 3rd, 2008 at 6:46 pm
That is crazy.
September 4th, 2008 at 12:23 am
Why did this have to happen? Eric told me she overdosed on heroin. I don’t even want to think about it…I used to hang out with her and Lena and Michelle all the time. We’d sneak up to the storage space above the stage and smoke during class, and sometimes we’d skip group and just fuck around, smoke….lolz one time we all kissed each other just to see who was the best kisser. I saw Lena not too long ago and she told me everyone was good, and told me about Lianes baby and what not. Oh man…my stomach hurts…
September 4th, 2008 at 12:43 pm
Yeah, I know what you mean. I don’t know whether she OD’d on heroin, but it still sucks. We’re going to the wake tomorrow night, if you want to tag along with us.. I’ll give you a call tonight when I get home from class.
October 24th, 2008 at 12:26 pm
[...] For all I know, she could have passed in the four hours I was at work. A couple months earlier, I found out my friend Liane from high school died. Before that, during the summer, I found out that my Grandpa Wish passed. (I can’t find that [...]