Perpetual Smile

I just realized that, aside from Sandy (and now Tyla), I don’t hang out with any of my friends. I see people posting pictures on their blogs, MySpace accounts, etc, and I rarely do that. Once a week I hang out with two friends and that’s all. I haven’t seen Joe, Nikki, John or other friends in a long time. I see groups of friends at the bowling alley and think to myself, wow, I haven’t done that in a long time. The most excitement in my life is on Fridays. There are no big adventures. Not that I don’t enjoy my Fridays. A couple of people are gonna read this and think the wrong thing. What I mean, I guess, is that I rarely have fun with friends. I’ve never been a particularly outgoing person. Only lately have I really blossomed and reached out. I really enjoy my Friday nights with Sandy, Tyla and sometimes Lauren. I barely even spend time with my boyfriend, but we’re usually out with his family. Don’t get me wrong there, either. I absolutely adore his family.

I guess I’m just starting to wonder if I’m going to end up a hermit. I think my life depends on this Friday, and some other plans this weekend, too. I need to stop sitting around with my nose in a book or my face crammed into the computer screen. I’m missing out on life. I need to get some people together and go do something completely dorky and fun, with cameras and smiles involved. I hate all of you fun people who do stuff with friends all of the time. It is absolutely imperative that something fun happens this weekend. I’m gonna have to make my own damn fun. (: